I won't let you go! I absolutely - I absolutely won't let you go...
[To let go of him now would be to go against everything she had stood for when she'd looked at the potential of a safe, happy life for Kaoru and weighed it as more important than her own qualms about killing. It would be to say "this didn't turn out the way I wanted, so it's worthless" - and that's not true at all. She will never, ever let Kaoru feel like he's alone, not after all she did to make sure he would grow up in a more nurturing environment, and certainly not after she's shattered all of that by coming here.
Waltzing into his life, breaking him to pieces, and then sweeping back out again... it would be completely unacceptable.
But her breathing is uneven, and if she doesn't calm herself she might just hyperventilate herself into unconsciousness. Still, her grip on Kaoru doesn't loosen.]
Do don't let me go either... stay with me. Stay with me...! Let me stay with you!
[There's a small voice in the back of her mind that says That's impossible. The Nagumo are still alive; she only has a week at most before they'll track her down. And if they track her here and find Kaoru...
No, no, no. She can't leave him. She was prepared to do it before, but she can't, she can't.]
I'll kill them... anyone who would take you away from me or me away from you, I'll kill them. I will! I've - I can do it, I've killed before, I'm not so weak that I can't kill to protect you...!
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[To let go of him now would be to go against everything she had stood for when she'd looked at the potential of a safe, happy life for Kaoru and weighed it as more important than her own qualms about killing. It would be to say "this didn't turn out the way I wanted, so it's worthless" - and that's not true at all. She will never, ever let Kaoru feel like he's alone, not after all she did to make sure he would grow up in a more nurturing environment, and certainly not after she's shattered all of that by coming here.
Waltzing into his life, breaking him to pieces, and then sweeping back out again... it would be completely unacceptable.
But her breathing is uneven, and if she doesn't calm herself she might just hyperventilate herself into unconsciousness. Still, her grip on Kaoru doesn't loosen.]
Do don't let me go either... stay with me. Stay with me...! Let me stay with you!
[There's a small voice in the back of her mind that says That's impossible. The Nagumo are still alive; she only has a week at most before they'll track her down. And if they track her here and find Kaoru...
No, no, no. She can't leave him. She was prepared to do it before, but she can't, she can't.]
I'll kill them... anyone who would take you away from me or me away from you, I'll kill them. I will! I've - I can do it, I've killed before, I'm not so weak that I can't kill to protect you...!