[She starts to speak up, even though she's still shaking, even though there is a very large part of her that wants to break away from him and back off before he gets angry or decides to hurt her - this sort of gentleness from a Nagumo can't last long. (But he's her brother, but he's a Nagumo, but he's her brother—)
Chizuru doesn't look very comforted by the way he thumbs over her cheekbones, though she has longed to be by her brother's side for so many years. It's the same sort of thing Kaoru might recognize - wanting something so much and being repulsed by it at the same time. Love, hate, comfort, fear - they're all sides of the same coin.]
It isn't your fault... I hid it from you. I hid it from everyone. I did my best so that you wouldn't know... You can't blame yourself for that. If you say I'm not allowed to apologize for what I did, then you can't blame yourself for it happening.
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[She starts to speak up, even though she's still shaking, even though there is a very large part of her that wants to break away from him and back off before he gets angry or decides to hurt her - this sort of gentleness from a Nagumo can't last long. (But he's her brother, but he's a Nagumo, but he's her brother—)
Chizuru doesn't look very comforted by the way he thumbs over her cheekbones, though she has longed to be by her brother's side for so many years. It's the same sort of thing Kaoru might recognize - wanting something so much and being repulsed by it at the same time. Love, hate, comfort, fear - they're all sides of the same coin.]
It isn't your fault... I hid it from you. I hid it from everyone. I did my best so that you wouldn't know... You can't blame yourself for that. If you say I'm not allowed to apologize for what I did, then you can't blame yourself for it happening.