You didn't have any way of knowing they were going to bring me in.
[He needs to stop blaming himself. He really, really needs to stop blaming himself, Chizuru thinks - it's them, all them, it's not him at all. To anticipate things that might go wrong is an impossible job. With thirty people in the game, and the producers keeping such a close watch on things, how could anyone ever perfectly predict what might happen? It's not like Kaoru is or ever has been a mind reader, and the Kaoru of the past had been apart from her for so wrong that it's no small wonder they had drifted apart so much that even with their newfound friendship in the castle he hadn't been able to tell what she was going to do.]
That's probably exactly why they did it... to distract you. Don't you think? [She should be trying to comfort him. This is her way of trying to comfort him - "It's something that couldn't be prevented, so it's inevitable that it worked." The part of her that used to be Yukimura Chizuru knows that's all wrong, but the part of her that still is Nagumo Chizuru is overpowering, and a careful acceptance of inevitabilities is how she's survived for so long.] They knew that I was important to you and that you would become important to me if given the chance to. They knew... They may not have known what you were going to do, but they knew enough of you to know that you would be a threat.
...and they knew enough of me to know that I would be easily molded into their tool.
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[He needs to stop blaming himself. He really, really needs to stop blaming himself, Chizuru thinks - it's them, all them, it's not him at all. To anticipate things that might go wrong is an impossible job. With thirty people in the game, and the producers keeping such a close watch on things, how could anyone ever perfectly predict what might happen? It's not like Kaoru is or ever has been a mind reader, and the Kaoru of the past had been apart from her for so wrong that it's no small wonder they had drifted apart so much that even with their newfound friendship in the castle he hadn't been able to tell what she was going to do.]
That's probably exactly why they did it... to distract you. Don't you think? [She should be trying to comfort him. This is her way of trying to comfort him - "It's something that couldn't be prevented, so it's inevitable that it worked." The part of her that used to be Yukimura Chizuru knows that's all wrong, but the part of her that still is Nagumo Chizuru is overpowering, and a careful acceptance of inevitabilities is how she's survived for so long.] They knew that I was important to you and that you would become important to me if given the chance to. They knew... They may not have known what you were going to do, but they knew enough of you to know that you would be a threat.
...and they knew enough of me to know that I would be easily molded into their tool.