[The tension is starting to drain out of her, but almost everything else is, too. Her hand falls away from her hair, coming to rest limply at her side, and her shoulders sag. It almost seems as if she lacks the energy to hold herself up.
She's tired. She's so tired. All those years with the Nagumo - how much of that is what would have happened if she had been the one to be taken for real, and how much of that is the Producers trying to make her suffer simply because they can? All of that, and for this... meeting her brother face-to-face in this world has just made him suffer, now.
...maybe that's what they were going for. Punishing Kaoru for daring to stand up to the game - they had used her to hurt him before. So of course they would make what happened to her in this life be as painful as possible for him. And of course they would have made it so that he would remember everything if they ever met...
She doesn't want to be their tool anymore.]
It might be worth it... if it could keep them from making us into pawns. [And then there's a sudden vehemence in her voice, though her expression is still mostly drained.] I'd rather die than be their toy ever again—! I don't want... I don't want to do what they expect, what they want...
[She wants to spite them, just as she wanted to spite the Nagumo clan.]
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[The tension is starting to drain out of her, but almost everything else is, too. Her hand falls away from her hair, coming to rest limply at her side, and her shoulders sag. It almost seems as if she lacks the energy to hold herself up.
She's tired. She's so tired. All those years with the Nagumo - how much of that is what would have happened if she had been the one to be taken for real, and how much of that is the Producers trying to make her suffer simply because they can? All of that, and for this... meeting her brother face-to-face in this world has just made him suffer, now.
...maybe that's what they were going for. Punishing Kaoru for daring to stand up to the game - they had used her to hurt him before. So of course they would make what happened to her in this life be as painful as possible for him. And of course they would have made it so that he would remember everything if they ever met...
She doesn't want to be their tool anymore.]
It might be worth it... if it could keep them from making us into pawns. [And then there's a sudden vehemence in her voice, though her expression is still mostly drained.] I'd rather die than be their toy ever again—! I don't want... I don't want to do what they expect, what they want...
[She wants to spite them, just as she wanted to spite the Nagumo clan.]