[It's familiar in a way that it shouldn't - can't - be. Or at least, it shouldn't be possible for Kaoru to be able to stand here, speaking of something that, in this lifetime, has never occurred. It makes Chizuru pause for just the slightest moment as she's helping to prepare the ingredients for cooking, and for an instant there's panic in her eyes, but she bites it down and bottles it up because she can't afford to lose control now, not when doing so already had ended so badly on the walk here.]
Ah..? Did she think they were too big or too small?
[She sounds politely interested and the slightest bit amused - no more or less than anyone else would when hearing such a story. But inwardly, she is panicking.
What does this mean? How can Kaoru remember something that's never happened? She knows it hasn't happened in this life, because she has always been aware and able to remember since the producers put her back here. A child with a grown woman's consciousness - it was what was necessary to make the change she needed to make in order to save him, since there wasn't any feasible way of keeping the humans from coming in the first place. And that would only have been a stopgap measure, anyway; they'd have come again, and Kaoru would be in danger again, but this option had led to his safety and happiness.
- Or so she had thought, anyway. If there is even the smallest bit of before lingering in him anywhere, if the producers have failed somehow in keeping him from remembering all the suffering he'd endured at the Nagumo's hands anyway, if it's all bottled up in him somewhere, what is she going to do?
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Ah..? Did she think they were too big or too small?
[She sounds politely interested and the slightest bit amused - no more or less than anyone else would when hearing such a story. But inwardly, she is panicking.
What does this mean? How can Kaoru remember something that's never happened? She knows it hasn't happened in this life, because she has always been aware and able to remember since the producers put her back here. A child with a grown woman's consciousness - it was what was necessary to make the change she needed to make in order to save him, since there wasn't any feasible way of keeping the humans from coming in the first place. And that would only have been a stopgap measure, anyway; they'd have come again, and Kaoru would be in danger again, but this option had led to his safety and happiness.
- Or so she had thought, anyway. If there is even the smallest bit of before lingering in him anywhere, if the producers have failed somehow in keeping him from remembering all the suffering he'd endured at the Nagumo's hands anyway, if it's all bottled up in him somewhere, what is she going to do?
She can't protect him from his own mind.]