[She wants to stay here in his arms forever, but she can't, and she knows that - if she takes all the time she needs, that's what would happen. She would never leave, because what she needs after having lived with the Nagumo is to see her brother constantly, to see him safe, happy -
Maybe it's not enough that he's doing well on his own. Maybe it will never be enough. Selfishly, what she wants most of all is for him to be happy with her. She saved him, didn't she? ...isn't it only right if they're reunited in the end? She thought she was content to leave him in peace, to live with the Nagumo and watch them die out not by blade but on their own, slowly, because she would never bear them a child and they were too twisted for anyone else to bear one for them. She wanted the downfall of the Nagumo to be a slow and painful process and she wanted to be there for every moment of it.
Now she wants them dead and gone so she can stay with her brother. Her brother. They're each other's family! Kodo isn't his real father, he was never her father, they're all they have left in the world, she doesn't want to leave -
Her heartbeat has quickened again; her breathing is uneven. Slowly, she forces herself to calm down. If she works herself up, that won't help matters at all.]
The food... is going to get cold. [She should pull herself out of his arms, but she can't bring herself to.] ...we should eat... I didn't mean to distract us from that.
[I'm sorry is right there, at the tip of her tongue, but he's already told her not to apologize.]
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Maybe it's not enough that he's doing well on his own. Maybe it will never be enough. Selfishly, what she wants most of all is for him to be happy with her. She saved him, didn't she? ...isn't it only right if they're reunited in the end? She thought she was content to leave him in peace, to live with the Nagumo and watch them die out not by blade but on their own, slowly, because she would never bear them a child and they were too twisted for anyone else to bear one for them. She wanted the downfall of the Nagumo to be a slow and painful process and she wanted to be there for every moment of it.
Now she wants them dead and gone so she can stay with her brother. Her brother. They're each other's family! Kodo isn't his real father, he was never her father, they're all they have left in the world, she doesn't want to leave -
Her heartbeat has quickened again; her breathing is uneven. Slowly, she forces herself to calm down. If she works herself up, that won't help matters at all.]
The food... is going to get cold. [She should pull herself out of his arms, but she can't bring herself to.] ...we should eat... I didn't mean to distract us from that.
[I'm sorry is right there, at the tip of her tongue, but he's already told her not to apologize.]