[She doesn't think she'll have another attack - when they come, they're intense, but when they go... they stay gone for a long while, until all her bitterness and resentment and fear and rage build up and explode again and she's lost to the intensity of it all. Maybe it would be healthier for her to express them more steadily, to not let any of those feelings build up at all -
But that's not something the Nagumo clan would accept. It's just a side effect of the role she has to play while in their company. The perfect wife, demure and willing to do as they say, never once complaining.
She hates herself, sometimes - hates Nagumo Chizuru, the person she pretends to be in order to survive.
Her gaze wanders down to the odamaki-mushi and the peaches, and she can't help but smile. Kaoru is thoughtful - she wants to focus on the kindness she can experience here with him, and not the horror she'll experience when she goes back.]
It will make the food taste even better... I think.
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[She doesn't think she'll have another attack - when they come, they're intense, but when they go... they stay gone for a long while, until all her bitterness and resentment and fear and rage build up and explode again and she's lost to the intensity of it all. Maybe it would be healthier for her to express them more steadily, to not let any of those feelings build up at all -
But that's not something the Nagumo clan would accept. It's just a side effect of the role she has to play while in their company. The perfect wife, demure and willing to do as they say, never once complaining.
She hates herself, sometimes - hates Nagumo Chizuru, the person she pretends to be in order to survive.
Her gaze wanders down to the odamaki-mushi and the peaches, and she can't help but smile. Kaoru is thoughtful - she wants to focus on the kindness she can experience here with him, and not the horror she'll experience when she goes back.]
It will make the food taste even better... I think.